I have been "working" on working out and eating healthier for about 27 years. Sadly, it has only been about the past week or so that it actually sunk in that an "every-other-day-diet" is not going to work.
I have struggled with weight since before I can remember. I have played sports in high school and had a personal trainer before, but nothing seemed to stick. I started exercising a lot in high school when I found a class at the gym I loved--a country line dancing class, of all things, but the instructor was incredible and really got me pumped. I started to lose weight and it felt great! I went from 185 lbs down to 160, going from a size 16 to a size 12. But, I heard negative comments from people around me that I still wasn't skinny, I still had more to lose, and that a size 12 isn't something to be happy about. Since my whole family thinks a size 6 is chubby, I could see their point. I gave up. I stopped working out and started self-bashing even more than before. I kept thinking "I will never be good enough."
Freshman year at college I had a mental break when emotions from a traumatic event from my past surfaced and led to severe panic attacks and depression. I gained 35 lbs that first year away. But, more than that, I began some terrible habits of eating until I couldn't feel and locking myself away from the world, and that included exercise.
Over the next few years, from 2004 to present, I have staggered up to my heaviest weight ever--300.4 lbs. I mean, really? I am the size of TWO people, smashed together into one giant, gelatinous blob. It is quite gross.
This is starting to sound depressing, which is not my intention!
I have recently decided that for the health and well-being of my Hubby and my lil' Bubbs (he is a little over a year old), that I am the deciding factor for our health. I mean, really, I plan the meals, make the grocery list, and do most of the shopping. I cook the majority of the meals and if we don't eat at home and just "pick something up", it is usually because I have been lazy and didn't get around to pulling out the meat or doing the dishes or whatever the excuse of the day is.
So! My point is this: I am working on a healthy regime. I am going to make sure my son knows the value of exercise and is willing to eat healthy foods (he is pretty great at that already). I am going to help myself be the example by going to the gym, doing exercises at home, and by eating healthy.
I have an account with caloriecount.com and it is such a brilliant site. I feel like I have more energy because I can see what I have been lacking in my diet so easily from their daily food analysis and then find something to compensate for what I lack. Most of all, I love their recipe analyzer. It helps me to look and see what a good portion of a recipe would be and I can adjust the recipe before making it if I see there is too much fat or sodium or not enough protein or fiber. Love this tool!
I will be posting on here every day or so about how my progress is going and what recipes I have found that I love and hopefully pictures of what I make, assuming my Bubbs hasn't taken off with it and hidden it in a shoe somewhere.
Here is to a healthier, happier me!
Healthy=Happy Me
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